After all this time writing random crap that makes no difference in my career progression save maybe marginal increase in my writing quality, I reopened my novel’s Scrivener file, and began typing. And you know what? It was easier and quicker than I thought it was going to be. I’ve been stuck on chapter 10 of part 2 since, well, forever ago, it seems like. Maybe I can actually finish it this week. God knows I need to get past this and move to the next sections. At least get to part 3 ffs.
(The funny thing is that I know exactly what needs to happen, just couldn’t bring myself to write it or figure out the details. I think this is what actual writer’s block looks like. Boy was it hard to overcome. Still gave me shivers thinking.)
I also started the month with the ambition of trying Camp NaNoWriMo for April. I won July last year, so I feel alright about my chances. Well, then my father-in-law visited for a week and all writing kind of went out the window. It’s so stupid because he left me alone for most of the day, I just feel so distracted with him around that I couldn’t concentrate on anything. Now that he’s finally gone my writing has gone right back to schedule, but it does mean I won’t be able to make my initial word count of 20k. It’s okay. I’ll just write as much as I can, I guess. I mean I’m not really using these “word writing months” for anything other than a small push. I’ll be trying to write 33k by the end of May anyway, so the Camp part is just a formality issue.
I’m just happy my novel is finally, finally moving forward again.
I actually made my word count for July Camp NaNoWriMo! Yay!!!
I set a word goal of 16000 words on my novel this month. Yeah, it’s not much, but hey, I actually accomplished what I set out to do this one time. Wow. More than a decade of trying both NaNo and Camp NaNo and never making past halfway of any of my goals, and today is the day. July 2017. Jesus Christ I am horrible at this furious writing thing.
But I’m not going to dwell on all of my past failings, at least not today. I made a word count goal at the beginning of the month, and I’m at it now. So. Kudos to me. I’m going to go have some ice cream to celebrate.
First day of Camp NaNo and I made my word count. Yay!!
But first days are always easy. It’s the habit that’s hard to form. So, we’ll see how the rest of the week goes, yeah?
My s.o.’s company is having Monday and Tuesday off due to Fourth of July, so we’re essentially having a four-day weekend. And what’re we doing with that? Housework. Yep, there’s a hole in the bedroom we have to patch. The entire upstairs need a good thorough cleaning. We gotta scoop out the dead plant in the planter outside that we’d neglected since, oh, we bought the house nearly a year ago. I’m thinking of trying to get a green thumb by planting something easy and simple like an herb. To do that we first need to buy new soil and seeds and all that good stuff. So, yeah, an entire four days devoted to mundane housework. I feel very much like we’re married right now.
We might go to Malibu one of these days. Probably Monday, if weather permitting. I mean it is So Cal so weather is 97% permitting all the time, but just in case. Need some good beach and ocean time to relax.
Camp NaNoWriMo starts tomorrow. I’m, of course, trying again. It’s a good thing I can put my own word count goal – only about 16000 words this time. I know it’s an odd number but life got a bit more complications so I had to adjust accordingly; I started off at 20000. I may adjust it again mid-month once I know more details about my schedule (and possible house guests!). It’s better to do do-able and conservative than over-estimate and then get stressed and run out of steam. That’s my demon, by the way, stress and fear making me run out of steam quicker than you can say ‘balloon pop’. But such is life.
I’m taking today off from writing to prep. Mostly just reading and planning out my Bulletjournal. Gotta make all the widgets for July, you know? My husband is a much, much better artist with much, much classier penmanship than me, so I’m totally enlisting some of his free time so he can decorate my Camp NaNoWriMo page. Make an occasion of things and it’ll seem more official, which in turn makes it all the more appealing to strive for. At least that’s what I tell myself. We’ll see how much of this grand plan works out.